February 11th, 2026

(whatever I write, always know I'm a-okay 😉)

At nearly 38 
I’m so very tired. 

I’ve found
My country is run by pedophiles,  
The internet by AI,
The groceries by capitalism, 
The neighborhoods by ICE, 
And the psychic told me once 
I would live to 85 
But she didn’t say how well
Because I’m starting to get very, very
Tired. A drunk tired, a well-fed-but-broke 
Tired. A white tired. A closed door 
Tired. It’s still tired,
But it’s not dire, I know. 
I have 47 more years.

I’m watching people fight, hoping they win. 
A spectator tired. A colosseum tired. 
I can’t believe this is happening. 
A World War tired. A Great Depression tired. 

I wonder if anyone has ever been so tired. 
A Gaza tired. A Holocaust tired. 
Every night I crawl into bed, so safe it’s almost 
Sickening. 
Sleep shuns me. 
This isn’t even mid-life.